Fear or Intuition?

The struggle to find clarity

Lately, my mind feels like an open browser with too many tabs - half of them frozen, the rest blasting music from an unknown source. I used to be structured, clear, decisive.

Now? I catch myself drifting, struggling to sort through my own thoughts, second-guessing what used to come naturally. And if I’m honest, that scares me.

It’s also this: I’m in a getting-to-know-you phase with someone. Again. And again, there’s an age gap. I keep asking myself: Is this right? Am I making a conscious choice, or am I slipping into familiar patterns? It’s hard to tell if my gut is warning me or if it’s just fear trying to protect me from something I haven’t even experienced yet.